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3.2.2026 i wish i was a cat. a black cat. cats are cool. you ever want to be something you're not? i want to live on a farm with a cat and a garden. dahs
3.2.2026 it frustrates me to see evil in the world. not subjective evil, what people debate over like expression or plastic but OBJECTIVe evil. murder and rape and war. it frustrates me that these things still exist and still perpetuate and i feel that if everyone had an aligned moral code formed by fire and strong as steel then we would drastically improve. but free will remains a problem. and as frustrating as it is, it is also a gift. it is not the will that is evil, but the one that makes it real. dahs
3.1.2026 oh, and i was quiet most. silent unless spoken to. kept looking around. didnt really feeel there. the dennys. he said when he dropped me off: "i cant tell if he had fun but yeah [blah balh blah...]" listening to kendrick lamar's DAMN. and despite its... content, LUST. has a nice beat. dahs 3.1.2026
went to a thing for church. since im graduating - alongside three others (me, x, x, x) - and turning 18 also, and we're all 'male' the church we attend wants us to do this initiation thing. nothing too culty. just stand in the middle of a circle and talking about what it means to be a man. and what you believe in. we met at denny's/. the one leading the man's thing asked us what we were doing for long-term/short-term. i asked for clarity. he said it didn't really matter. the others had given generic details: barbershop understudy, electrical engineer. another said CNA and gave some description. this is what i said, roughly from memory: i'm currently doing prerequisites - two years. then switch to four year college - i'm doing dermatopathology, then -- he stopped me there. had me expand on dermatopathology. said it's the lab person who diagnoses skin samples and whatnot. didnt mention the motivation for entering the medical field, which is the money. or whether it was what i wanted. the barber guy seemed to have some actual want. good for him. already selling cuts $25 a piece. then i said: 4 year general college, four year medical, two year understudy. 10-12 years lost to a job. job. oh well. dahs 3.1.2026 just learned how to add metadata. solution: can now listen to albums in order. problem: i have 1,281 songs to go through. some arent from albums. some are from online, small artists w/o actual albums. or are just sounds. anyways, added metadata to Kendrick Lamar's DAMN. cuz without the songs being in order it loses coherence. doing it takes up lots of time but its delayed gratification ig. not fun in the moment but satisfying to see it all come together. problem is that it takes me a while to download files and go through it all. but at least i got one down. thats all i really wanted. maybe when i have more energy i can do the rest. dahs 2.28.2026 nearby dollar tree held its "grand opening" today. despite it having been open for about two weeks now. they served cake, held a raffle, and gave out free candy via wheel spin. fun. also balloons. afterwards, we went to a new Cane's in Seattle. been about six years since we last been there. the food was smaller than in Vegas. but oh well. cant complain. dahs 2.27.2026 found some snails in the coffee plant named them coffee adn bean coffee is female me and my younger brother assume bean is male coffee is smaller but more active bean is larger and more like a bean we put them in a terraroum with dirt and plant decay and moss and a rock dahs p.s. it was bad but now its great. doesnt take much to make me happy. 2.27.2026 played some board games with younger games. Apples to Apples Upwords (basically Scrabble but you can 'build' on words) dominoes go fish war (the card game; very fun) dahs 2.27.2026 i cried reading the next two chapters. stopped a third into "Witch Hazel." the descriptions so vivid, the story so compelling. the way kimmerer's daughter described Hazel, the elderly woman who lived in a "shotgun house" with her disabled son - a veteran - and daughter, who spoke with her mother about plants, about work, about the earth. the nostalgia and longing described in how she ran when they drove her back to her home in Kentucky, abandoned and forgotten by all but her. i wish we could go back to those times. less infrastructure; less concrete bridges and harsh electric lights. but time marches onward, and we feel compelled to match his endless pace. we forget to slow down, to live out our life. because we must draw out the sweetness given to us: sap doesn't turn to syrup without strength. and strength, and i paraphrase this, it comes when all are involved. she wrote how "sugar camps" would be composed of all in the tribe - grandmothers and infants. all hands were needed. we have lost this. i cant say much other than that this book is great. i dont think ive ever actually cried at a book before. dahs 2.26.2026 robin wall kimmerer's chapter on animacy is my favorite so far. https://www.youtube.com/@cpnlanguage she wrote: "In English, you are either a human or a thing." she wrote how English reduces things down into objects or people. as though the two were never one. as though people were not once dirt. i feel sorrow and shame when i see where America had come from, and how little had been done since to right what was wronged. even now i see still harm being done to those suffering under the system we adopted. im unsure what can be done. maybe someone like robin can tell us. we need someone older, wiser, with greater experience than us, to guide us and lead us in the direction we ought to head. but we should not deny our own experiences. we must also consider where we live. to know what is right, and what is true are two different things. dahs 2.26.2026 but can anything good come from Nazareth? come, come and see. but can anything good be born from man? come, come and see. but can anything good come from breath? come, come and see. but can anything good be born from the wicked’s plan? come, come and see. but can anything good come for free? come, come and see. but can anything good be made from thee? come, come and see. dahs AJ McQueen - Seeds album - Can Anything Good Come From Wellston? 2.26.2026 our bio teacher during lab asked us where we were going what we were doing after we finished this semester i told her the same thing i always did prerequisites biology dermatopathology BIO DTA/MRP keywords without meaning. spoken without want. as i spoke this time - unlike the other two times, over the past two-four weeks as it was every Thursday, and she would ask every other Thursday - i began organizing. i dont normally. okay i do but i began making the pens and writing utensils parallel with the table and then my phone, laid out on the table and then my notebook, prone upon the table. beforehand, i had organized some pipetting equipment we would later use. i spoke - low, even, mentally practiced - and felt i had messed up even still. im unsure as to what that entails. dahs 2.26.2026 favorite game / series is probably Pikmin. something about being an alien on Earth, or PNF-404. somethign about being so small and yet having such a vibrant existence. something about growing. something about exploring. dahs 2.26.2026 magneto carlseno magnus carlsen magnum dahs 2.25.2026 my favorite genre right now is rock. specifically shoegaze. also post hardcore, skramz, emo (especially Midwestern emo) and HM is folk rock, like Forth Wanderers, Curdle Motif, Neutral Milk Hotel. shoegaze is nice - it's so distorted all you can gather from it is how you're supposed to feel. no concern about lyrics. complete opposite frmo most rap. or most musick. addicted to Title Fight'sLefty. might add more to the mp3. dahs 2.25.2026 i like collecting bottle caps. idk its fun. people drink a lot here. some of them ar ecrushed. dahs 2.24.2026 a few moons ago i tempted God. i said to my parents that i was waiting for a call. that i was waiting for them to approach me. and now i am being called left and right, to and fro. God - countless, immeasurable. i - 0. once again humbled. dahs 2.25.2026 i like thrifting. its cheap, its secondhand, and sometimes you'll find gold. it feels like adopting something someone else gave up; dad thinks all things have spirits; animism. rocks, animals, trees. maybe they do too - humanmade objects. couches, lamps, rugs. dahs 2.24.2026 interesting things to think on: the full experience of humanity is in mind, body, emotion and soul. metaphor is closest to sacrament. you are the goldenrod to my aster. dahs p.s. im better staying cooped up inside is death to the soul and a curse to the mind. note to self - go outside. 2.24.2026 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1TXt4evT65U dahs 2.24.2026 had 2 dreams they both borrowed pre-existing dream architecture one was in this mall lights low, almost blue-lighting it was dusk, or nearly dusk and we were at the mall entire family and in the mall there was this 10’x10’ space with just arcade games and we spent the time playing together i’ve seen that space 4-5 times now the other dream we were in a well-lit supermarket and we were shopping i was gathering balloons that i saw around the place and i saw that the balloons had turned into a speaker which both are something referenced from my waking life anyways i gave it to someone else to safekeep and we went to pay and we paid and as we left we took photos also there was a sunset after each dream, i woke up in a sweat first was at around 0400; second at 0600 its currently 0701 those dreams, i think, happen whenever i had a generally good day. i think, dahs 2.23.2026 check this out ▓▓▓▓▓░░░░░ woah. dahs 2.23.2026 yesterday was rough. went to bed at 1900. didnt sleep until 2100. stayed up editing playlists. i havent written poetry in months. i think visual arts have replaced the literary. im tired. its easier to take photos than to write. but i wish i could write still. dahs 2.21.2026 its 2 pm and i feel like crying. i hate how quickly a day can go from good to bad. i hate how easily i can be hurt by that. these types of days, i either dont eat or eat too much. today its too much. i never cry. until i do. then i lash out. its cathartic kinda. but it always ends with someone hurt. dahs 2.21.2026 he wants to cut our hair again. im trying to think of reasons not to [-]. dahs 2.21.2026 QUIPPING (2) * Voices signified by the use of () and []. (There are three things I despise: a person who lies, a person that steals, and–) [Yourself?] (Shut up.) [Make me.] __________________________ (I love you, but your presence is such a burden.) [Like a stone embedded in your flesh – it is harmful, yes, but removing it would be far worse than living with it.] __________________________ [I really hate you.] (Yeah? Well, I hate you as well!) [This is a haiku.] (... Stop being meta.) __________________________ a portion of something im working on. dahs 2.21.2026 added two songs to playlist #2. dahs 2.21.2026 i lie habitually. not out of malice, but fear. i fear punishment. i fear being wrong. so i lie. even over small things. i fear. it is better that i release this rather than let it gather like dust under my bed. that way i need not keep it any longer, and i can finally rest. dahs 2.20.2026 added svn4vr to playlist #2. dahs 2.20.2026 i dont like being high energy. i have to chew on things. mints, mostly. or gum. or the inside of my cheek. if i dont i feel like screaming. dahs 2.20.2026 our family has some little inside jokes a little game i started it innocently so yknow how patrick says "good morning, krusty krew!" around november or so i was sayingt hat alot in the morning and my siblings joined in so it becacme a thing of "who could say it first?" then my mom joined in. then dad. then my older sister decided to turn it into a game. we have times for certain parts of it - 3 am is special (+2 points!) - "oh boy, three am!" 5 am is "good morning krusty krew!" 12 pm is "good afternoon krusty krew" 5 pm is "good evening krusty krew!" and 8 pm is "good night krusty krew" its fun. my mom gets competitive tho. dahs 2.20.2026 who wins in a fight - Helen Keller or Stephen Hawking? dahs 2.20.2026 “Refusal to participate is a moral choice. Water is a gift for all, not meant to be bought and sold. Don’t buy it. When food has been wrenched from the earth, depleting the soil and poisoning our relatives in the name of lighter yields, don’t buy it. [...] For the greater part of human history, and in places in the world today, common resources were the rule. But some invented a different story, a social construct in which everything is commodity to be bought and sold. The market economy story spread like wildfire, with uneven results for human well-being and devastation for the natural world. But it is just a story we have told ourselves and we are free to tell another, to reclaim the old one. One of these stories sustains the living systems on which we depend. One of these stories opens the way to living in gratitude and amazement at the richness and generosity of the world. One of these stories asks us to bestow our own gifts in kind, to celebrate our kinship with the world. We can choose. If all the world is a commodity, how poor we grow. When all the world is a gift in motion, how wealthy we become. [...] The commodity economy has been here on Turtle Island for four hundred years, eating up the white strawberries and everything else. But people have grown weary of the sour taste in their mouths. A great longing is upon us, to live again in a world made of gifts. I can scent it coming, like the fragrance of ripening strawberries rising on the breeze.” - Robin Wall, Kimmerer, Braiding Sweetgrass, p. 31 and its barely begun. dahs 2.20.2026 update is that now it is "magnus carlsen" or "magna carta" that i mutter. moved on from mackerel i s'pose. dahs 2.20.2026 people who hoard wealth like dragons are corny. i mean the bible said it nothing you have in this world will follow you through and in the end the only thing that remains of you will be your LEGACY. dahs 2.18.2026 tonight went good. it snowed here. or looked like snow. it was big. kind of hail? but not really. like small crushed ice. when i get excited i get loud. i have to channel that energy outside so i scream. i cry. i get excited. my inhibitions are loosened when i am happy. im still very aware though. dahs 2.18.2026 added a new page for books. stuff ive read, stuff i own, stuff i want to own. mostly for records-keeping sake. so i dont forget. dahs 2.18.2026 added a new page. for music. will keep track of playlists there. dahs 2.18.2026 supercomputers kind of scare me. dahs 2.18.2026 problems people ask against christianity - things like sickness, poverty, war - are almost entirely human-caused. God steps back, respects our autonomy, lets us figure our way out of our own fog. poverty only exists in a capitalistic, monetary system that promotes inequal wealth distribution. sickness is shown to correlate with increasing technological advancements. war is literally just people fighting. everything we get mad at God for is our own undoing. dahs 2.17.2026 there is a woman in the college class she is full of life and i have respect for her. she has four kids, she reminds me of my mom. she came in with two today. little young'ins. it broke my heart; my mom spoke about how she did college with my older sister growing in her stomach. how she sacrificed her life - education, travel, stability - so she could have this one. she says she had a vision from God to marry dad. i hope He was right. dahs 2.17.2026 back in vegas there was this library i loved. it was big; there was a small art gallery that changed exhibits and themes about bimonthly, a small theater that held movies and magic shows, a giant array of books, a play place for kids, and a computer area. it was so good. it’s called windmill library. i call it beauty. there are libraries here; we live across one. its smaller, but its just as good. dahs 2.17.2026 i've been forgetting where things are placed. a jack adapter (lightning to USB-C). a small keychain. time. work. i think thats bad. oh well. i get over it eventually. dahs 2.16.2026 i am reaching that point again. i am snapping at others over minor things. dahs 2.14.2026 yeah also happy valentines day or whatever. valentines means worthy. i dont care much for love. dahs 2.14.2026 [REDACTED feb 16, 2026] christianity is just a political point now; an identity. i hate how it has become this. i swear i am going to become a nomad and live in the wilderness just to avoid people. i do not like people. i do not like people. dahs p.s. [REDACTED feb 16, 2026] 2.11.2026 playlist #2 Eshon Burgundy - Nothing but the blood Pastor T.L. Barrett and the Youth For Christ - Nobody Knows Narrow Head - Nodding Off ellie adair - no one The Smiths - Heaven Knows I'm Miserable Now Forth Wanderers - Slop Curdle Motif - The cancer song Mac Miller - Blue World Malcolm X - Excerpt, Knife In My Back (serves as interlude) Busta Rhymes - Look Over My Shoulder J. Cole - Drum n Bass Kendrick Lamar - Real MF DOOM - THAT'S THAT Instupendo - Six Forty Seven (another interlude) Honey Strettion - The Thrill Of Loneliness Alex G. - east coast Gooseneck - ...but I'm shaped like a star (interlude, Youtube video i downloaded) SALES - big sis Plàstica - ¡Muak! The Spinners - Smile, We Have Each Other Kendrick Lamar - reincarnated Sondae - in the cool of the day ft. Moflo Young Adult Choir Of Peace Baptist Church - For This Day (added sometime Feb., 2026) J. Cole - and the whole world is the Ville (added Feb. 17, 2026) dahs 2.11.2026 there are others here life is fuzzy at the edge. spring will arrive soon. dahs 2.10.2026 currently sitting at 1223 songs on the mp3. working on playlist #2; not sure what it'll be, but we'll see. things unfold as they see fit. i am just the channel. dahs 2.10.2026 i am content sitting with contradictions. i dont feel the need to see everything; to solve every paradox. some people get unsettled, need to fix things. but i dont really feel like i should try. if it exists, so it exists! let it be, i say. so long as it doesn't hurt me or others, or doesn't serve as a danger. there's a caveat in every rule. waking up in the morning and feeling happy makes me feel that the feeling won't last longer; i feel like the day will end with me feeling sorrow. the inverse is also true; waking up sad makes me think the day will end well. magical thinking, i suppose. just another excuse for me to stay sad. sadness is addicting. dahs 2.9.2026 some moments are meant to pass. i was outside - dark, half-awake, shoes untied, lazily tucked in - and a plane roared overhead. i reached for my pocket instinctively but felt no camera. dahs 2.9.2026 writing about the crow reminded me about that time me and my family were going to a fred meyer's before church and i saw a crow usinmg an exposed root to pull apart peanut shells. it was cool. also my favorite foods are lasagna, salmon, cranberry sauce (on anything, really; on meats, sweets, by itself), adobo, kalderate, bibingka and pastas. i like salads, oranges, grapes, but most of all fruits i like strawberries. i like water obviously, lol. but also juices - before our blender broke i made lots of homemade juices - mostly just whatever fruits and juices we had; it always ended up too thick but i drank it anyways. coconut water, too. dahs 2.9.2026 i like to play games with my siblings. mostly we play on the switch 1. got it for christmas couple years back. mostly things like minecraft and animal crossing. things people don't get mad at. so we don't get in trouble. i like to play smash ultimate a lot. but still not too good; just like beating up CPUs. also deltarune; still excited for chapter 5 sometime this year. made a prediction board with my younger brother; he and i play together a lot. my older sister helps me out with work and whatnot. i get lost easily (mostly because i dont really care about school) so she helps, especially when it comes to things like resumes and what-have-you. me and my younger sister kind of tiff, yk? middle child chaos, aha. anyways, the order is like this: 1 (eldest sister) 2 (me) 3 (younger sister) 4 (youngest brother) mom said she wanted the order reversed; boy, girl, boy, girl. because "boys are the protectors." me too. i guess. dad said they only really wanted two, but God decided to double it. i'd say something kinda but ok. dahs 2.9.2026 saw a crow execute evasive maneuvers to avoid another crow. they're largely juveniles. including the robins. orange chested robins, various songbirds, seagulls, crows, and the occasional bird of prey (bald eagles) i'ves seen here. seagulls and crows act like rivals, constantly fighting over food and trash and whatnot. the robins mostly stay by themselves in small groups and like to hop around or gather in the greener areas. the songbirds like to fly; i've seen chick-a-dees, jays, hummingbirds, probably more but those are just off of my head. i once saw a jay with a smaller bird in its beak. i didnt know they were omnivorous. it had a mohawk and a blue chest with a black body. the jay. not the smaller bird. anuways the crow did a barrel roll and landed on one of those large trash dumpsters. pretty cool. also there's a crow that died overnight a couple days ago or something its body is on the parking lot and it's been sanded down. i can see its insides. i probably wont upload it. dahs 2.7.2026 also, updated Playlist #1 a bit. Thee Sacred Souls - Will I See You Again? Quasi - I Never Want To See You Again ROARS - I Can't Handle Change Girlfriends - Untitled #6 Pity Party Girls Club - i hope that you think of me The Strokes - The Adults Are Talking soophie nun squad - Something Pretty For Some Everyone Asked About You - i will wait Everyone Asked About You - Sometimes Memory Fails Me Sometimes Title Fight - Head in the Ceiling Fan Renting Asteroids - The House in the Field Last Chance - Sarcasm Forth Wanderers - Slop SALES - ivy Current Joys - Televisions SALES - renee Radiohead - Weird Fishes / Arpeggi rehash* - Back To Strangers Train Breaks Down - Permanent As Your Errors Pencey Prep - Don Quixote i don't like mirrors - i miss your warm hands (interlude) The Sha La Das - Those Years Are Over TENDER TOUCH - Can I See You Tomorrow? Skip O'Donnel - Clinging To The Clouds The Rare Occasions - Notions (Acoustic) Fional Apple - Why Try to Change Me Now dahs p.s. Yeah, Cole's new album is kinda odd. after the hype faded, lots of singing, but also, i like it. he incorporated a lot of country stuff too. strumming and whatnot. Ocean Way is literally just a soft acoustic tune and him singing. 2.7.2026 updated Playlist #3, wiped #2 completely. lots of the J Cole is from his new album. here it is: J. Cole - Poor Thang Terrell Morris - Winterfall Kendrick Lamar - Institutionalized Baby Keem - Opinions Baby Keem - ORANGE SODA JID - Raydar JPEGMAFIA - either on or off the drugs Mac Miller - Blue World MF DOOM - Accordion J. Cole - Lonely At The Top J. Cole - Bombs in the Ville / Hit the Gas exociety - out of body JID - Dance Now Cities Aviv - NOT THAT I'M ANYWHERE Colin Munroe - Start A War ft. XV Spillage Village - End of Daze Kendrick Lamar - GOD. Frank Ocean - Pink + White SZA - Saturn J. Cole - cLOUDS Earl Sweatshirt - Ontheway! ft. Standing On The Corner Kanye West - All Falls Down ft. Syleena Johnson J. Cole - Run A Train MF DOOM / King Gheedorah - Krazy World J. Cole - The Villest (added feb 9, 2026) Kendrick Lamar - Burn [UNRELEASED] (added feb 11,2026) Spillage Village - Baptize (with JID & EARTHGANG ft. Ant Clemons) (added feb. 13, 2026) Isaiah Rashad - Free Lunch (added feb 14, 2026) JID - Somebody (added feb 11, 2026) Dreamville - Sacrifices (added feb 16, 2026) dahs p.s. also, out of 24 of Cole's new songs on The Fall Off, i got 18. 2.6.2026 been listening to cole for a bit. mostly on the mp3. 8 out of 24 of his songs from The Fall Off downloaded. ill get the rest tomorrow. i hope. its a saturday; he'll be home all day. dahs 2.6.2026 i think im manic. i think im going to update Playlist #3 again. i think i cant sleep until its late. i think i crash and then i feel absurd energy. i think i need help. not that you care. dahs 2.6.2026 updated Playlist #3 after Tyler's I'll Take Care Of You, removed and edited as follows: J. Cole - WHO TF IZ U J. Cole - Bunce Road Blues Don Toliver - E85 Ice Cube - It Was A Good Day dahs 2.6.2026 added J. Cole's Legacy from The Fall Off to Playlist #1 just because. dahs 2.6.2026 loved the album. Cole the people's person favorite track: Quik Stop dahs 2.5.2026 TODAY JUST GOT BETTER COLE DROPPED THE FALL-OFF BUT ALSO NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO IS HE RETIRING??? IS HE THE GOOOOOOOOOOAT?? (idk, top 5 tho) LESGO I WAS HERE dahs 2.5.2026 today was good. im doing running start; have been for some time now. professor asked us to self-report on teamwork. here's what i wrote: "What were your contributions to the team’s work this week (and previous weeks)? Your Answer: This week (February 5th, 2026): Assisted in obtaining the eggs & weigh boats for Experiment C Assisted in labelling Assisted in timing of eggs' duration in Solutions Assisted in egg retrieval and return to/from Solutions Assisted in data retrieval and recording Assisted in egg weighing Previous weeks: January 15th, 2026 (Daphnia experiments): Assisted in measuring daphnia times Assisted in preparation of ethanol solutions Assisted in preparation of daphnia specimens Assisted a classmate (E. B.) in graph formation Assisted in recording data Assisted in averaging out recorded data January 22nd, 2026 (Chemistry of Food): Assisted in crushing cracker Assisted in collecting crushed cracker through pipette Assisted in applying respective solutions to tubes Assisted in testing of water-oil-soap mixture via shaking January 29th, 2026 (Prokaryotic & Eukaryotic Cells): Retrieved potato slice Assisted in application of solution to potato slice Retrieved plant leaf (Elodea) Notably, identified potential nucleus within cheek cell specimen Question 2 Not yet graded / 1 pts Define your strengths/weaknesses as a team member? Your Answer: Strengths: I am able to work efficiently when given direct orders. I am also able to efficiently record data and information. Weaknesses: Without a direct initiative, command or leader, I would likely be lost. I also suffer mildly in communication. Question 3 Not yet graded / 1 pts Describe your interactions (communication, organization, motivational support, progression towards fulfilling a common goal, promoting excellence, adaptability) with team members. Your Answer: I'm able to organize efficiently, as well as delegating certain tasks between me and others. I can also provide support when necessary, as well as small bouts of motivation. When given a common goal to obtain, I aim to work efficiently to complete it, and, if necessary (or if no others will), I will delegate tasks to myself and my team members. Question 4 Not yet graded / 1 pts What do you plan on doing differently in subsequent weeks to improve your team’s effectiveness? Your Answer: I could try to delegate tasks more efficiently, as I think I bore a notable portion of the workload without allowing the others to assist." dahs 2.5.2026 i found it. it was inbetween the couch cushions. anyways i updated Playlist #1. its shorter, but also better, i feel. Thee Sacred Souls - Will I See You Again? Quasi - I Never Want To See You Again ROARS - I Can't Handle Change Girlfriends - Untitled #6 Pity Party Girls Club - i hope that you think of me The Strokes - The Adults Are Talking soophie nun squad - Something Pretty For Some Everyone Asked About You - i will wait Everyone Asked About You - Sometimes Memory Fails Me Sometimes Title Fight - Head in the Ceiling Fan Renting Asteroids - The House in the Field Last Chance - Sarcasm Forth Wanderers - Slop SALES - ivy Current Joys - Televisions SALES - renee Radiohead - Weird Fishes / Arpeggi rehash* - Back To Strangers Train Breaks Down - Forty Hour Suit Pencey Prep - Don Quixote dahs 2.4.2026 im sort of sad. i lost my mp3 player. somewhere under the couch i thkn. but its whatever. for some reason im not as distressed as i think i should be. i guess it doesnt really matter. at least its somewher ein the house. and i have the music on my computer & phone. but my dad put an hour time limit on it so but its ok cause i have my computer. and i have fun. im happy. dahs 1.31.2026 we were walking in the mall when a man an elderly man looked at me and my family and asked us: "do you believe in God?" my mom said yes. then he said: "do you beleive in heaven an d hell?" my mom said yes. "how do you get saved?" my mom smiled turned and walked away. we followed. i couldnt get my mind off of that conversation. i cant help but feel like we missed out on something big. dahs 1.30.2026 i forgot i wanted to touch on certain speech habits i have. or had. i used to randomly, without real reason, repeat certain words. it was things such as “beef.” honestly beef is the primary one i recall. it occurred alongside facial twitches i experienced since fifth grade; never went away, only resurfaces during great stress or in high stress. sometimes ill hum too; it occurred round the same time. nowadays its the word “mackerel.” mackerel mackerel. i dont know why i shift through words, but its just something that happens. i truly do think something’s wrong. dahs 1.30.2026 nature is awkward and brutally honest. there is no Disney Bambi. no cute little cartoons. no smoothness in its functions. that sall human idealism pushed through rose-tinted cameras and monetary predation on humanities’ love for naivety and nature, which they mistake as one and the same. nature is not naive. nature is not beautiful, though it can give the appearance. nature is as nature is. it works to work, not to be romantic or idyllic. if it is beautiful, that is but a byproduct of its attempt to maintain function. humans are silly; i write this, myself a human. we are foolish and hard-headed and stubborn and relentless in our pursuit of reality, but it is always too far ahead of us. we simply see its aftertrails. i would write more, but humanity’s frustrations are far too many for one to process in a single post. dahs 1.30.2026 i wanted to observe how i talk. i was raised in nevada – the suburbs, mostly. went to public school. went to church. hung out with a lot of different people – i remember mostly coloured folk: Native American, Middle Eastern (i believe Pakistani or perhaps some other, though i never knew him good enough to discern), Russian, Japanese, many Black or African Americans, and of course white folk. now, when i went to church, it was a very diverse place. it was an apostolic pentecostal church led by a Texan pastor and his wife. it was also surprisingly diverse. actually now that i think about it there was very little self-segregation into groups; relatively mixed throughout. i like church, as contrary as i may make it out to be. i dont like swearing. i like the idea of there being a God; and people dragging it just because pain me. some people can just be cruel. i like the idea of Christianity, but modern christians are the type of people Jesus would hate. for they worship him with their mouths, but what of their hearts? i hate how religion has become another political point, another “holier than thou” point for people to wave around. they point at Jesus and say “look at Him! i believe that He’s real, so IM BETTER THAN YOU!!” ahem. i lost myself there but i am not going to remove that. anywho i was pulled out of physical school during COVID. my parents kept us at home, and now after we moved to WA we do online school; still outsourcing knowledge, but keeping us home. they say its for our safety, but i think dad’s just paranoid. he keeps ranting to us about “the world” and how we’re different because we’re [REDACTED] and Christian and whatnot and it’s just him virtue signalling and refusing to engage with outside culture. he’s also [REDACTED]. if i said it out loud id be afraid he saw this. starts with an ‘r’, ends with ‘t’, has a ‘c’ and two other vowels. but i figured it out myself. i used to listen to a lot of boy bands - One Direction, N-SYNC, Boyz II Men. my mom was a big boy-band fan; she grew up in Cali, what my dad calls the “ghettos,” and honestly i believe it. her church (entirely Filipino, Catholic) was in a car garage as they grew up. when we visited California, we drove by it. she likes K-pop now; my sister introduced it to them ~2020s. Butter. they teach us some of their language; casual use of occasional Tagalog and Ilocano. notihhng more than short phrases. my dad taught us “kwabolala” or thief or something; i believe it was zulu? an African language. he grew up in Africa for a good part of his life; his dad worked as an engineer. moved countries a lot. he was rich. says he fired maids at will; they called him “Little Devil.” i see it. there are some other things i want to write, but it’d be too revealing. i discovered hip hop through MF DOOM. first real Black artist outside of Snoop Dogg i’ve really heard. then i heard J. Cole through Dreamville. then i found Kendrick Lamar through Alright. i don’t reall like fast or aggressive beats; i prefer slower, smoother beats as well as an emphasis on lyrics. when im with others i speak more formally; im trained to do that. it’s “courteous.” when im in a more casual environment, i grow lax. more casual language. i speak somewhat semi-formally, though i recognize that it appears somewhat absurd at times. i replay certain conversations constantly. i cringe. dahs p.s. i wrote this out in a doc, then ctrl+c, ctrl+v it. allowed better flowing of thoughts. i liked it. 1.30.2026 multiple things: 1 - i had a dream today. it left me conflicted. 2 - ergh i forgot. dahs 1.28.2026 finished Playlist #1, but its always a WIP as follows: TV Girl - Lovers Rock mage tears - sun and moon Girlfriends - Untitled #6 Car Seat Headrest - Sober To Death Macseal - Next To You The Boojums - Don't Wanna Love Radiohead - Just Weezer - Say It Ain't So soophie nun squad - Something Pretty For Some Nirvana - Dumb Shroomunion - dragonshine Cocteau Twins - Pandora (For Cindy) Everyone Asked About You - Sometimes Memory Fails Me Sometimes The Strokes - Selfless Title Fight - Head in the Ceiling Fan saleontomorrow - tide of tongue and toothache MASS OF THE FERMENTING DREGS - Dramatic The Itchyworms - Beer the pillows - Ride on shooting star Linkin Park - Lying From You Soundgarden - Black Hole Sun Pencey Prep - Don Quixote Computer - All in my head Mazzy Star - Fade Into You Badfinger - No Matter What The Smiths - William, It Was Really Nothing The Strokes - Call It Fate, Call It Karma Radiohead - Where I End and You Begin UPDATED jan 29, 2026 x2 UPDATED JAN 30, 2026 dahs 1.27.2026 a playlist on my mp3, titled "Playlist #3" you cant change the name of the playlists. mostly hip hop. actually, almost entirely hip hop. as follows: MF DOOM - Raid Kendrick Lamar - Count Me Out Kendrick Lamar - TRIPPIN & FALLIN (UNRELEASED) Kendrick Lamar - BLESS UP ft. Brent Faiyaz (UNRELEASED) MF DOOM / King Gheedorah - Fazers Mac Miller - Here We Go exociety - out of body Frank Ocean - Pink + White Kanye West - Devil in a New Dress Ab Soul - Bloody Waters Baby Keem - Opinions JID - Off Da Zoinkys exociety - [SAVE] DON'T SAVE Colin Munroe - Start a War ft. XV Cities Aviv - NOT THAT I'M ANYWHERE Dre'es - Warm ft. Lali Bi Baby Earl Sweatshirt - Ontheway! ft. Standing On The Corner Marques Martin - fine then, I'm gone Baby Keem, Kendrick Lamar - vent (OG Version) Aesop Rock - Daylight MF DOOM - Deep Fried Frenz J. Cole - No Role Modelz exociety - FREE JPEGMAFIA - I'll Be Right There Tyler, The Creator - 911 / Mr. Lonely Kendrick Lamar - Burn (UNRELEASED) Kendrick Lamar - Momma Tyler, The Creator - I Hope You Find Your Way Home JID - Community ft. Clipse JID - Wholeheartedly ft. Ty Dolla Sign & 6LACK Kendrick Lamar - Big Shot (UNRELEASED) Wu-Tang Clan - C.R.E.A.M. MF DOOM - GAZILLION EAR Rapsody - Back In My Bag Tyler, The Creator - I'll Take Care Of You Kendrick Lamar - Real Ones / NOSE (UNRELEASED) Ice Cube - It Was A Good Day UPDATED JAN 29, 2026 x2 and thats it. working on Playlist 1, which i plan to be mostly rock. plan to have it kind of coast through moods. playlist 2 is r&b; chill. dahs 1.26.2026 one word, one artist, one soundcloud account you HAVE to look up: "twikipedia" your welcome. dahs 1.26.2026 you ever jst not care about what directino your life is taking? dahs 1.24.2026 i dont like getting my hair cut but what can i say to my dad he'll just damn him dahs 1.24.2026 what can i even do [REDACTED] i just dont wanna [REDACTED] dahs redacted jan 28, 2026 1.24.2026 another I [REDACTED] [REDACTED] i [REDACTED] dahs redacted jan 28,2026 1.23.2026 i forgot i wanted to talk about my mp3 player i think i have around 1,053 songs # 744 is Radiohead's All I Need i want to learn how to play that one i've sorted them all into around 14 main genres, then they're split into specific artists and subgenres like midwestern emo's under rock, which also has hard rock then i have uriah heep, radiohead, nirvana, weezer and then i have indie which includes Anna Wise, Curdle Motif, Neutral Milk Hotel, and anyone else who couldnt cleanly fit under any of the other genres i've pop, hip-hop, showtunes (music from shows and stuff), rock, jazz (+blues and soul), foreign (Japanese, Korean, Spanish, Filipino + others not listed because they're in other genres), etc etc i like my mp3 player. im happy i got it. oh right images. uhm you can see images, its in the archive, just click it then go to the images page. how do you know its the image page? it's titled "images." dahs 1.23.2026 i think im an early bird i wake up coherent and with a song on my lips (SALES - renee) its the rest of the day that screws me up. dahs 1.22.2026 what i want from this life: someday i want to play the ivory keys and know what love sounds like. someday i want to be brave enough to upload a video. with actual images. and sound. to not have to be perfect. to not have to choose. to be without being anything more. to be accepted without strings. to skate. to learn how to draw. really draw. i dont know what love looks like. or sounds like. i think it's when two people care for each other. thats what cs lewis said in his four loves. but then some say it's nothing at all; that its just chemical reactions and hormones. some say then that its everything. that its all life is meant to be. the bible says God is love. hinduism claims love is what binds the universe, a fundamental glue. i dont know what i believe. or any at all. i just know that i love not being alone, and that i love the quite, and that i love thinking; but i also hate those things sometimes. i was going to delete this but i chose against it. dahs 1.22.2026 a guitar with no strings makes just as beautiful a sound. dahs 1.21.2026 coldest take ever - im fa irly sure that amerca's doomed but what can you expect when you build it on ideals ideals can never be lived up tto and eventually someone's gonna come along and try to take advantage of your idealism dahs 1.20.2026 i know it doesnt need to be said but im not trying to reinvent the wheel with this post. it just needs to be said, and its good to remind ourselves of this. there is no evil. at best, there is good, and at worst neutrality. evil exists because humanity permits it. it is not violence, it is not death, it is not even murder. all exist naturally, and all happen without evil intentions. evil exists because we see its consequences and we declare it the 'opposite of good.' western/abramaic beliefs anyways. other beliefs hold the idea of yin and yang, or of nature's indifference. it simply is. trying to define it is like to make 'nothing.' you can't make it - it simply is. the opposite is of evil. evil exists because humans have capacity for evil, and we personalize the object of evil onto other things because we cannot comprehend things outside of our own perspective. in fact, i detest the idea of a person being an animal, or being inhumane, when they're evil: in fact, when a person is most evil,they are most human. choosing to be evil is choosing to be the most base human. look at adam. look at eve. they were not evil; they were sin-laden. c.s. lewis said that the pleasures were made by God, who is a hedonist, and a most terrible one at that. He really does love us vermin. the demons can never truly create pleasures, only pervert them beyond what God intended. this perversion out of God's plan is that evil, because it does not align with His image. but when things are aligned, it is good. or neutral. we see death, and we think it evil. i think it neutral. it formed because of our sins. we are evil - death is simply what is required of us. but no longer. dahs p.s. - if a tree falls in a forest, and no one is around to see or hear it, does it really even exist at all? does the forest exist? do you? do i? or are we simply beings, minds, perceiving the world weakly because ourselves are weak? if we saw it as it was, what then would we see? would we see light? form? would we even see still? maybe there's a reason we don't know everything. we might hurt ourselves/ 1.20.2026 maybe the reason you dont have a gardn is because everytime a flower grows you cut its head to prove to everyone that you're a gardener. - i stole that because i thought it was pretty dahs 1.19.2026 youre so afraid of losing me that you grip me tight' and wnow im dying[] beca use of you Like a flower bloomed early and pluckt, so have I. You wanted to preserve it, but in the very act you have caused its death. dahs 1.19.2026 you hold me down keep me close to your chest and you say im safe and you say im loved let me go a bird in its cage willwwwikll] i cant. iwas. iwa sgonn a but i just cant. dahs ps. do they do oyou even see this?/ do you even care. am i real to ayou, or ma i just a doll 1.16.2026 imma b real i live in wa, right sucks tbh and i gotta do dis uhhhhhhhhh hsbp (high school and beyond plan) and like bro its.. why i have no motivation to do any of it i could care less dahs 1.14.2026 i liek watching atla tlok, not so much dahs p.s. https://www.are.na/dahs/stuff-brevh9oqqf0 1.12.2026 its easy to fall into despair. just watch mee do it ahaha dahsthepigeon.neocities.org dahs 1.10.2026 i dont know if im normal. i dont know if i experience things normally. i dont know if i feel things normally. i dont know if i want that. i dont know if i like that. dahs 1.9.2026 i think i fear that nothing i do will ever feel worth it. i think i fear that i feel that already. i think i fear dying one day and feeling like ive accomplished nothing. i think i fear losing everything i have here; my photos, my words, my worlds. i'd probably die if i did. dahs 1.6.2026 this class seems... promising. i think it'll be good this time. i hope. dahs 1.5.2026 i was gonna write something --- you always think best when working repetitively, in silence. but then i forgot. i was sated ---panem et circenses. i dont know whether to be comforted or afraid of that. dahs 1.3.2026 on an unrelated note, i love deltarune. dahs 1.3.2026 i had these thoughts saved on my clocks app since last year; ill post them here. written 12.3.2025 the moment people stop holding my hand --- stop guiding me through my own life --- i collapse. i falll apart, i freeze. i always need help. im n othing without it. written 12.31.2025 i dont dream anymore. i used to dream about what i wanted to be. a doctor, an astronaut, an artist. each onecrushed, b elittled, pruned until onlyone remained suitable enough for my parents. after that, i stopped dreaming. i let others dream for me. my dreams are empty husks now: an abandoned city a dark alleyway, snapshots of a life that couldve been, snatched from hands still grappling blindly. where others dream of stars, i only of silence. dahs 1.2.2026 happy new years dahs 12.30.2025 happy new year's eve's eve dahs 12.29.2025 i think being socially isolated as a child made me a tragic -. or whatever. edited jan 3: im no hero. my dad doesnt like the idea of boys having long hair. i dont really care what he thinks though. not since i think i like being alone. or at least i believe i do. i think im wrong. dahs 12.25.2025 new archive button. top right. see old stuff there. resets the blog every year, near the end of it all. dahsARCHIVED DATE: 12/25/2025 12.21.2025 i hate school amd i just wanna be a nobody i dont care about life also i wanna learn how to skate dahs 12.17.2025 is it just me or does life lose meaning as you age. all it is is work wor kwork. i hate work. i hate money. i want to live away from any and everybody. i dont want to do anything. nobody was meant to live like this. dahs 12.16.2025 i took a step back. worked on some things. im better now. listen to Plàstica's song ¡Muak! so good. dahs 12.10.2025 i hate finals i hate school i hate people that put pressure i hate that i hate i hate everyhting dahs 12.9.2025 anyoneh ave tips for getting out of a daydream i hate ai it doesnt help dahs (p.s. im losinmg myself) 12.8.2025 have you ever missed someone youve never met? asking for a friend. i own nothing. i owe everything. i should jump. jump. somebody push me/save me. dahs 12.8.2025 i feel bad for hating. people try so hard. why cant i respect that. i slip into daydreams when i cant slip out of life. dahs 12.5.2025 words that mean nothing and everything: nage (rage behind a smile) trantiveness (the feeling of not belonging to the world you are currently in) sonder (the profound realization that every random passerby is living a life as complex, vivid, and detailed as your own) onism (the frustration of being confined to one body and place, aware that you can only experience a tiny fraction of the world) anemoia (the feeling of nostalgia for a time or place you've never actually experienced) anhedonia (the inability or significantly reduced ability to experience pleasure, joy, or interest in activities that were once enjoyable) uppgivenhetssyndrom (a Swedish term for Resignation Syndrome, a condition where children become completely withdrawn and unresponsive, often to the point of being unable to move, eat, or speak) komorebi (a Japanese word for the dappled sunlight that filters through tree leaves) Backpfeifengesicht (a German word that translates literally to ‘cheek-slap-face,’ meaning a person who… has a very punchable face) Bahala na (Filipino fatalism term meaning ‘come what may’) bǎi làn (a Chinese contemporary movement phrase popular amongst younger citizens; it means ‘let it rot’) been thinking about words. how we use them. proliferately. misconstrued. dahs 12.4.2025 i wish i had fri ends i mourn the old me; younger, happier. the smiles were real, then. so was the pain. i cant smile for real anymore. im going to die alone. or young. whichever comes first. dahs 12.4.2025 learning institutions kinda gwump. that means sucks. my head hurts. why do i need 2 kno about electrons and molecules? they make up everything (lol) dahs 12.4.2025 one step left forward one step right forward avoid cracks keep it even keep it nice if i mess up i fix it i step back or correct and adjust step step evenly on cement blocks, over crack, step step evenly on cement block smooth transition to different texture; same pattern, same rules. dahs 12.3.2025 i twitch alot at home. my eye, my left eye, twitches. alot. i hum. i hate loud or weird noises, feelings. i hate tape, stickers, on my body. surprised? not really. i think somethings up. not gonna get tested tho.. ever. there are six of us: two parents, four siblings. im second eldest. we... do fine. fine. fine. i wake up at 4 am in cold sweats. i never tell a soul. i fear i may lose mine. i never know if anything i do is accepted or fine or okay unless i ask. and i am afraid to ask. id rather die. dahs 12.3.2025 we all look normal on the outside. our family looks normal on the outside. we act normal on the outside. smile, clap, do things. begrudgingly do things. woefully do things. with a smile, of course. so nobody suspects something's off. we appear normal. they pick us up. they never let us go. they keep us safe. they keep up locked in. what a beautiful world. oh, what a lie, what a lie. what a world we trudge through; like soldiers through mud, through hands, through friends, through enemies we trudge through. dahs 12.3.2025 kpop, for the most part, manages to fetishize asian culture and minimize/appropriate black culture at the same time. a demon with pastel colours and predatory advertising. i acknowledge that not all do this, but its presence cannot be denied. most people, culture eat this up. they love it when non-black people do black things. i like it sometimes; but too much of anything is a bad thing. kpop just doesnt fit for me: too fake, too polished, too artificial. its an industry pretending to be a friend. people don't like it when others do things their way. too weird, too loud, too ghetto, too asian, too sharp, too soft, too too too too-- rock. rap. hip-hop. jazz. its not even just music; its ideas, ideals, beliefs. its inventions, myths, its everything. why do we listen to them. a demon in a white cloak and a burning cross. i acknowledge that not all do this, but its presence cannot be denied. dahs 12.2.2025 at learning institutiton. paranoid. they dont mean it; im near the stairs. but i feel eyes on me. help. dahs 12.2.2025 i used to cut i pray nobody i know sees this i pray god sees this. sometimes i dont know. i remember every incident. a meathammer over my hand; i think i hurt someone. me crying in our room; i think i disappointed him. he beat me. him bragging about being the head of the house; then threatening to break our legs if we tried to run to CPS. i hate him. i dont love him. he is not my father. i know he'll never see this. he doesnt care enough to check. but if he does, im dead. doesnt matter anyways. ive accepted death. it all comes the same. dahs 11.30.2025 i love street photography. sometimes i take photos of people. but i dont upload stuff w/ people's faces in it w/o their consent. thats important. very important. sometimes i dont follow my own rules. hypocrite. dahs 11.27.2025 i was taped to a chair as achild by my father. i swore. i said bitch, he treated it like i cursed his family. he brushed my face with soap, my mouth. delicious. he taped me to the chair. he left me in the dark of a garage in las vegas. i dont know how long. he explained nothing. he only told me that im wrong and that i am getting punished because i deserved it. im still getting punished. i still deserve it. i had some dreams today. some about music. some about family. the music ones were nice. lyrics were invented, songs were sung, instruments were played. none of them exist. the ones about family were stressful. tense. like someone was about to open up a dam’s worth of emotions and drown in it. dahs 11.26.2025 i love crows dahs 11.25.2025 ive been working on this thing... i call it WCI. think SCP, AU stuff. but. different. dahs p.s. ill show it when im ready. 11.24.2025 i know what form my fear takes. it is the form of a man. he looks like my father. he looks nothing like him. he acts everything like him. he lurks in the edges. the shadows. he pushes. he urges. does everything fade with age? does colour die in your eyes? does food lose its flavour, flowers their aroma? does life die before one draws their final breath? dahs. 11.22.2025 he hates me. he hates inconsistent. disobedient. i will not change. bite me. i will grow against. silently. like scraping my skull against concrete. this is my vengeance. criticism hurts my soul. i put everything into everything i do; if i dont feel, i dont do. i only do things i believe in. everything else feels irrelevant. feeling melancholic (like usual), dahs 11.20.2025 SANCHO!!! I have Conceived an Idea most Ingenious! dahs Don Quixote 11.20.2025 i mean its not like im trying to avoid him its just that i dont want to bother him so i pretend to sleep until he leaves i just want to avoid as many awkward talks as possible. for both our sakes. its not like ill actually listen to what he says. i always zone out and think about how never mind. i just needed to rant a bit. the pillows were a pretty cool band. sucks they disbanded. on an unrelated note. OOPS! ALL KNIVES, dahs 11.19.2025 right right some things about me xD Favorites (in no particular order): music (hiphop, rock, jazz, folk, Jpop) myths superstitions cats & crows taking photos old/retro/idk like the typa stuff youd find in an antique shop orange/blue/green - like, the soft kind RAAH I LOVE IT the beach (tho i cant swim :<) cool rocks cool youtubers (i recommend 'porch gang,' 'syck outside,' 'diki's swamp,' 'natitude,' 'randomxgoober,' 'findlepop,' 'bunch of friends,' 'GIFGAS,' 'Liam Thompson,' 'kodekai,' '199bois,' 'Aawoza,' 'Gawx Art,' 'ABSTRACT,' "Lemmino,' 'pat's soundhouse,' 'peace2752,' 'Tarochu,' 'Ammesto,' 'charlie jay.' 'SubwayTakes with Kareem Rahma,' 'riloe,' 'BUSHWA,' 'Jonny Mozza,' 'Jyuna,' 'Stoatly,' 'Chesuqi,' 'gooseneck,' 'Tilek All Better,' 'yuyuslivestreamdiary,' 'nolongerhuman_77,' 'shacrowspeaks,' 'meditations for the anxious mind,' 'Camille Cooke,' 'BENOFTHEWEEK,' 'Channel 5 with Andrew Callaghan,' 'astryuuna,' and finally 'meadowxscott') PART 2 of youtuber list: makenna greene; turtlewithhat; The Vandalist; Thoraya; tofokyo; brennan (@brennantoh); @PerfectScarecrow; jericho_house; @everyone_is_connected, @dreamakers; @Nosleep666; yan (@kristinethevideo); @SOLAR7; Donald Kifita; Orisa the Brand; The Ash Files; Notes From The Archive; I'mahappymello; Arpi Park; Hazy Black; 3verydayisagoodday; ratskewer; Ljot Swanhild; cassielover2007; DC3; godis; meowballs; cooper galanis; son0fjohn; Fileto; oliSUNvia; @Dementia-l8y; kkmfd; mothmanlover2000; Melitta; M&JMetal; Eleanorskya; josie kay; Pestrica *updated youtuber list, cuz i realized there's a lot more i like 2 watch. - 11.20.25, 12.1.2025 um yeah 17. Taurus, INFP. spring child :) kinda not used to opening up so dont expect me to reveal much dahs 11.19.2025 um yea i hate dolphins i had this whle rant about how they are just disguting but i decided against it just kno that sharks >>>>>>> dolphins by a landslide (they are infinitely cooler) the pink dolphins are pretty swag tho sorta mad kinda, dahs 11.18.2025 feels good to actually know what's happening in class. lots of mushrooms here, specially the red ones. y'know, toadstools. pretty cool. education hurts smy head. dahs 11.17.2025 ah, yes. i've changed the website again. indecisive, i kno. truth be told I did it on a whim, but yes, this is the new website. tell me wht u think in the 'ask.' section. peace, love and plants, dahs p.s. XD rawr